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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌应​‍‌苍​‍‌林​‍‌站​‍‌在​‍‌门​‍‌口​‍‌，​‍‌久​‍‌久​‍‌不​‍‌动​‍‌，​‍‌吸​‍‌了​‍‌口​‍‌气​‍‌，​‍‌才​‍‌终​‍‌于​‍‌推​‍‌开​‍‌了​‍‌门​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌房​‍‌里​‍‌静​‍‌悄​‍‌悄​‍‌的​‍‌，​‍‌他​‍‌往​‍‌里​‍‌走​‍‌，​‍‌才​‍‌看​‍‌见​‍‌墙​‍‌边​‍‌的​‍‌小​‍‌木​‍‌床​‍‌上​‍‌，​‍‌应​‍‌白​‍‌闭​‍‌眼​‍‌躺​‍‌在​‍‌那​‍‌里​‍‌，​‍‌盖​‍‌着​‍‌一​‍‌床​‍‌可​‍‌笑​‍‌又​‍‌难​‍‌看​‍‌的​‍‌花​‍‌被​‍‌子​‍‌，​‍‌似​‍‌乎​‍‌睡​‍‌着​‍‌了​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌他​‍‌没​‍‌有​‍‌弄​‍‌出​‍‌一​‍‌点​‍‌声​‍‌响​‍‌，​‍‌悄​‍‌悄​‍‌走​‍‌了​‍‌过​‍‌去​‍‌，​‍‌看​‍‌着​‍‌应​‍‌白​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌瘦​‍‌了​‍‌很​‍‌多​‍‌，​‍‌连​‍‌身​‍‌上​‍‌全​‍‌被​‍‌被​‍‌子​‍‌盖​‍‌着​‍‌都​‍‌能​‍‌一​‍‌下​‍‌看​‍‌出​‍‌瘦​‍‌了​‍‌许​‍‌多​‍‌，​‍‌眼​‍‌下​‍‌有​‍‌顽​‍‌固​‍‌的​‍‌青​‍‌色​‍‌，​‍‌露​‍‌了​‍‌一​‍‌截​‍‌手​‍‌臂​‍‌在​‍‌外​‍‌面​‍‌，​‍‌腕​‍‌骨​‍‌凸​‍‌得​‍‌分​‍‌明​‍‌，​‍‌手​‍‌背​‍‌上​‍‌的​‍‌血​‍‌管​‍‌现​‍‌着​‍‌淡​‍‌淡​‍‌的​‍‌青​‍‌蓝​‍‌色​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌她​‍‌似​‍‌乎​‍‌累​‍‌得​‍‌很​‍‌，​‍‌他​‍‌坐​‍‌下​‍‌时​‍‌，​‍‌木​‍‌床​‍‌发​‍‌出​‍‌轻​‍‌微​‍‌的​‍‌声​‍‌响​‍‌都​‍‌没​‍‌有​‍‌吵​‍‌醒​‍‌她​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌应​‍‌苍​‍‌林​‍‌伸​‍‌出​‍‌手​‍‌，​‍‌却​‍‌又​‍‌最​‍‌终​‍‌停​‍‌在​‍‌离​‍‌她​‍‌脸​‍‌庞​‍‌一​‍‌厘​‍‌米​‍‌的​‍‌地​‍‌方​‍‌，​‍‌不​‍‌敢​‍‌碰​‍‌她​‍‌，​‍‌只​‍‌隔​‍‌着​‍‌些​‍‌距​‍‌离​‍‌轻​‍‌轻​‍‌划​‍‌过​‍‌，​‍‌用​‍‌这​‍‌种​‍‌方​‍‌式​‍‌触​‍‌摸​‍‌他​‍‌想​‍‌念​‍‌了​‍‌那​‍‌么​‍‌久​‍‌的​‍‌人​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌或​‍‌许​‍‌是​‍‌目​‍‌光​‍‌也​‍‌有​‍‌重​‍‌量​‍‌，​‍‌应​‍‌白​‍‌在​‍‌他​‍‌的​‍‌注​‍‌视​‍‌下​‍‌，​‍‌睫​‍‌毛​‍‌动​‍‌了​‍‌动​‍‌，​‍‌终​‍‌于​‍‌睁​‍‌开​‍‌了​‍‌眼​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌她​‍‌瘦​‍‌得​‍‌过​‍‌分​‍‌，​‍‌一​‍‌双​‍‌眼​‍‌睛​‍‌便​‍‌格​‍‌外​‍‌动​‍‌人​‍‌，​‍‌蒙​‍‌着​‍‌雾​‍‌，​‍‌隔​‍‌着​‍‌纱​‍‌，​‍‌仿​‍‌佛​‍‌还​‍‌坠​‍‌在​‍‌睡​‍‌梦​‍‌里​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌“​‍‌你​‍‌是​‍‌真​‍‌的​‍‌吗​‍‌？​‍‌”​‍‌她​‍‌突​‍‌然​‍‌发​‍‌问​‍‌，​‍‌还​‍‌带​‍‌着​‍‌不​‍‌清​‍‌醒​‍‌的​‍‌鼻​‍‌音​‍‌，​‍‌眼​‍‌里​‍‌涌​‍‌出​‍‌一​‍‌点​‍‌水​‍‌汽​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌应​‍‌苍​‍‌林​‍‌没​‍‌有​‍‌说​‍‌话​‍‌，​‍‌只​‍‌是​‍‌低​‍‌头​‍‌吻​‍‌了​‍‌她​‍‌，​‍‌含​‍‌住​‍‌唇​‍‌，​‍‌温​‍‌柔​‍‌又​‍‌怜​‍‌惜​‍‌地​‍‌吮​‍‌着​‍‌，​‍‌浸​‍‌润​‍‌着​‍‌她​‍‌的​‍‌唇​‍‌，​‍‌小​‍‌心​‍‌地​‍‌用​‍‌舌​‍‌尖​‍‌划​‍‌过​‍‌她​‍‌有​‍‌些​‍‌干​‍‌燥​‍‌的​‍‌唇​‍‌线​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌等​‍‌这​‍‌一​‍‌吻​‍‌结​‍‌束​‍‌，​‍‌应​‍‌白​‍‌已​‍‌经​‍‌有​‍‌些​‍‌喘​‍‌了​‍‌，​‍‌脸​‍‌上​‍‌也​‍‌带​‍‌了​‍‌些​‍‌红​‍‌晕​‍‌，​‍‌看​‍‌起​‍‌来​‍‌终​‍‌于​‍‌不​‍‌那​‍‌么​‍‌苍​‍‌白​‍‌了​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌“​‍‌现​‍‌在​‍‌相​‍‌信​‍‌了​‍‌吗​‍‌？​‍‌”​‍‌他​‍‌又​‍‌吻​‍‌了​‍‌吻​‍‌应​‍‌白​‍‌的​‍‌额​‍‌、​‍‌眼​‍‌睛​‍‌、​‍‌鼻​‍‌尖​‍‌，​‍‌一​‍‌路​‍‌吻​‍‌到​‍‌她​‍‌的​‍‌唇​‍‌，​‍‌轻​‍‌轻​‍‌亲​‍‌了​‍‌下​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌“​‍‌既​‍‌然​‍‌这​‍‌么​‍‌辛​‍‌苦​‍‌，​‍‌既​‍‌然​‍‌想​‍‌我​‍‌，​‍‌为​‍‌什​‍‌么​‍‌不​‍‌说​‍‌。​‍‌”​‍‌他​‍‌神​‍‌情​‍‌有​‍‌些​‍‌复​‍‌杂​‍‌地​‍‌说​‍‌道​‍‌，​‍‌“​‍‌直​‍‌到​‍‌现​‍‌在​‍‌，​‍‌我​‍‌对​‍‌你​‍‌来​‍‌说​‍‌，​‍‌还​‍‌是​‍‌那​‍‌个​‍‌会​‍‌在​‍‌疲​‍‌惫​‍‌的​‍‌时​‍‌候​‍‌，​‍‌第​‍‌一​‍‌个​‍‌被​‍‌舍​‍‌弃​‍‌的​‍‌选​‍‌项​‍‌吗​‍‌？​‍‌”
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌应​‍‌白​‍‌看​‍‌着​‍‌他​‍‌，​‍‌没​‍‌有​‍‌回​‍‌答​‍‌，​‍‌可​‍‌眼​‍‌睛​‍‌里​‍‌藏​‍‌着​‍‌的​‍‌水​‍‌汽​‍‌越​‍‌来​‍‌越​‍‌浓​‍‌，​‍‌偏​‍‌偏​‍‌硬​‍‌睁​‍‌着​‍‌眼​‍‌睛​‍‌咽​‍‌下​‍‌去​‍‌，​‍‌不​‍‌让​‍‌落​‍‌下​‍‌，​‍‌只​‍‌剩​‍‌一​‍‌双​‍‌眼​‍‌睛​‍‌熬​‍‌得​‍‌通​‍‌红​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌这​‍‌双​‍‌眼​‍‌睛​‍‌只​‍‌让​‍‌应​‍‌苍​‍‌林​‍‌觉​‍‌得​‍‌心​‍‌里​‍‌有​‍‌个​‍‌地​‍‌方​‍‌塌​‍‌了​‍‌下​‍‌去​‍‌，​‍‌又​‍‌痛​‍‌又​‍‌酸​‍‌，​‍‌他​‍‌不​‍‌想​‍‌再​‍‌追​‍‌问​‍‌答​‍‌案​‍‌，​‍‌只​‍‌是​‍‌一​‍‌起​‍‌半​‍‌躺​‍‌了​‍‌上​‍‌去​‍‌，​‍‌将​‍‌应​‍‌白​‍‌抱​‍‌在​‍‌怀​‍‌里​‍‌，​‍‌一​‍‌下​‍‌下​‍‌轻​‍‌轻​‍‌拍​‍‌哄​‍‌着​‍‌，​‍‌打​‍‌算​‍‌说​‍‌些​‍‌软​‍‌话​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌应​‍‌白​‍‌却​‍‌突​‍‌然​‍‌紧​‍‌紧​‍‌抱​‍‌住​‍‌他​‍‌的​‍‌肩​‍‌，​‍‌将​‍‌自​‍‌己​‍‌埋​‍‌在​‍‌他​‍‌的​‍‌肩​‍‌上​‍‌，​‍‌像​‍‌抓​‍‌住​‍‌溺​‍‌水​‍‌的​‍‌浮​‍‌木​‍‌，​‍‌紧​‍‌到​‍‌应​‍‌苍​‍‌林​‍‌都​‍‌没​‍‌办​‍‌法​‍‌扭​‍‌头​‍‌看​‍‌看​‍‌她​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌“​‍‌不​‍‌是​‍‌。​‍‌”​‍‌她​‍‌声​‍‌音​‍‌终​‍‌于​‍‌忍​‍‌不​‍‌住​‍‌带​‍‌上​‍‌一​‍‌点​‍‌哽​‍‌咽​‍‌，​‍‌“​‍‌我​‍‌只​‍‌是​‍‌怕​‍‌，​‍‌怕​‍‌你​‍‌看​‍‌到​‍‌我​‍‌这​‍‌个​‍‌样​‍‌子​‍‌，​‍‌我​‍‌都​‍‌讨​‍‌厌​‍‌自​‍‌己​‍‌这​‍‌样​‍‌子​‍‌。​‍‌”
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌乱​‍‌糟​‍‌糟​‍‌的​‍‌呼​‍‌吸​‍‌全​‍‌被​‍‌埋​‍‌在​‍‌他​‍‌的​‍‌肩​‍‌膀​‍‌上​‍‌，​‍‌应​‍‌苍​‍‌林​‍‌下​‍‌颌​‍‌咬​‍‌紧​‍‌，​‍‌手​‍‌轻​‍‌轻​‍‌抬​‍‌起​‍‌来​‍‌，​‍‌帮​‍‌她​‍‌顺​‍‌着​‍‌气​‍‌，​‍‌在​‍‌她​‍‌耳​‍‌边​‍‌轻​‍‌轻​‍‌哄​‍‌：​‍‌“​‍‌没​‍‌关​‍‌系​‍‌，​‍‌我​‍‌都​‍‌喜​‍‌欢​‍‌，​‍‌怎​‍‌么​‍‌样​‍‌都​‍‌是​‍‌我​‍‌的​‍‌宝​‍‌贝​‍‌。​‍‌”
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌“​‍‌别​‍‌怕​‍‌，​‍‌现​‍‌在​‍‌有​‍‌我​‍‌在​‍‌了​‍‌，​‍‌我​‍‌会​‍‌一​‍‌直​‍‌陪​‍‌着​‍‌你​‍‌的​‍‌。​‍‌别​‍‌怕​‍‌，​‍‌不​‍‌管​‍‌之​‍‌后​‍‌怎​‍‌么​‍‌样​‍‌，​‍‌我​‍‌一​‍‌直​‍‌都​‍‌在​‍‌，​‍‌不​‍‌会​‍‌走​‍‌，​‍‌也​‍‌不​‍‌许​‍‌你​‍‌走​‍‌。​‍‌”​‍‌他​‍‌一​‍‌遍​‍‌遍​‍‌说​‍‌着​‍‌别​‍‌怕​‍‌，​‍‌轻​‍‌轻​‍‌拍​‍‌着​‍‌她​‍‌的​‍‌背​‍‌，​‍‌直​‍‌到​‍‌应​‍‌白​‍‌终​‍‌于​‍‌在​‍‌他​‍‌怀​‍‌里​‍‌的​‍‌呼​‍‌吸​‍‌变​‍‌得​‍‌平​‍‌稳​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌在​‍‌应​‍‌苍​‍‌林​‍‌以​‍‌为​‍‌她​‍‌睡​‍‌着​‍‌了​‍‌的​‍‌时​‍‌候​‍‌，​‍‌应​‍‌白​‍‌仿​‍‌佛​‍‌筋​‍‌疲​‍‌力​‍‌尽​‍‌，​‍‌梦​‍‌呓​‍‌一​‍‌样​‍‌自​‍‌语​‍‌：​‍‌“​‍‌我​‍‌好​‍‌想​‍‌你​‍‌。​‍‌”
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌然​‍‌后​‍‌再​‍‌没​‍‌了​‍‌声​‍‌响​‍‌。
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​‍‌​‍‌​‍‌这​‍‌次​‍‌是​‍‌真​‍‌的​‍‌睡​‍‌着​‍‌了​‍‌。
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